I’m exhausted. It’s been a long week of parenting and growing. I’ve spent a lot of energy this week working to get over the bumps that have been holding me in the depressive clutter mode in the house.
We made it to church and it’s the only hours each week that I have without the kids. I typically stand and worship and feel moved and refreshed.
Today I’m tired. I want to sit.
And I have this moment that I realize all the “should”s. I should be standing. I should be singing. I should feel my spirit start to move and settle in.
The song is saying “in every season, I will praise you.” In every season….
God’s here when I sit. I can just sit with God. I can be tired with God. I can be numb with God. I’m here to worship with fellow brothers and sisters who are in all different seasons: so why do we need to look and be the same in how we worship?
Break the “should”s.
Today I sit. Today I rest in His presence.